Sophia's 2nd Birthday
Hello Sisters!
"Be merciful and gracious to me, O Lord, for to You do I cry all the day." Psalm 86:3
I've been crying a lot. I've been crying out over my flesh which seems to get the best of me. I think I'm the only one with these problems but then I remember Tami and Jim Baker, that gay pastor in Colorado (having sex with boyfriend, doing drugs and preaching against gays) and scores of other fallen Christians who look good on the outside, but inside are crumbling.
I have been thinking about all the different Christian women I know....who are divorced. One of them with 7 children "fell out of love" and her husband wasn't doing his "Christian duties as far as a father goes."
I COULD BE a divorced woman myself. My family knows I'm great at being a b*%$&. I'll walk Spirit controlled really good for a while. Then one day I "look" at my circumstances. I don't like what I see. I will think about it the next day when my husband brings home 99. cent laundry store soap instead of Trader Joe's laundry soap. This will go on unchecked for a few days, I will ignore the promptings of the Lord and then something else will happen and my anger grows inside my heart. That's how I turn into a B.
You'd think BY NOW....being married for almost 19 years, I'D SEE MY FLESH RISING UP AND CRUCIFY IT ON THE SPOT. The sad thing is......I don't. At least not most of the time.
I am determined to SLAP my flesh back A G A I N and A G A I N because I CAN do ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.
I think I'll stay married to my husband. He is the father of my children, we enjoy each others company, that's saying a lot compared to most women I know!
I was given some advise by an older woman the day I was married on how to keep your man. #1 Lots of good food #2 Lots of GREAT sex. I'd like to add one thing. #3 Lots of admiring and praising towards your man. and for "me" #4 KEEP MY FLESH UNDER CONTROL.
I was thinking. Next time he makes me mad, I should just take him to the bedroom for some love-making. If I did that every time my flesh rose up, I might just have a new man, I mean, a NEW ME! :)
Blessings,
Shannon
